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Why hello there. [13 Jul 2006|08:54pm]
I'm trying so hard not to read the entries below this one. It's been a year, and alot has happened, but I don't think the hurt has gone away completely.

Oh well. So I'm completely overwhelmed right now, it's summer and I have so much to do...

_ 1000 anatomy words to memorize
_ a whole Italian menu to memorize
_ 2 novels to read
_ worksheets for those novels
_ ireland, Fordam, and Beach * i know those are vacations, but they deter from me getting what i really need to get done, done.

SO yeah. I'm freaking out. I'm so tired too. Eh.


[29 Aug 2005|12:06am]
I'm fucken afraid to update this thing now.

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[20 Aug 2005|02:38pm]
This has been one insane week.

Black people singing, partying, meeting mraz, getting a 'phone call' and never one back. It's all good though.

I was in a good mood last night, I don't know about today, it's already 2:39 and I havent done anything, and don't feel like doing anything.

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[16 Aug 2005|11:20pm]
I know you all are crazy jealous cause I met Jason Mraz today.



[13 Aug 2005|07:26pm]
The beach was alright. Basically I spent the whole time being depressed because I missed him and everything reminded me of him. I can't stand it.

Basically I'm depressed all the time now. I don't know if I can do this again.

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[10 Jul 2005|09:46pm]

"we're gonna try and work things out." Ooookay.



I went over Ashley's friday night.. it was good times. Ryan Bennett and John Z. called me up at like 1:30 totally wasted.. funniest conversation ever.. it was awesome.

Saturday morning Claire and I went to the open casting call thing.. Long story short, I got called back, out of 30 people I was this guys top pick.. the guy's name was Ross.. he was the guy in the voltzwagon(sp) commercial who licked the handle of the car so nobody else would take it. He's soo damn hott I love it. Anyway, I went in for a second interview today and he said he wanted me for a class and stuff.. I'm pretty excited, but extremely nervous..ahh..

I went to the movies with my mom tonight. We saw Mr. and Mrs. Smith.. best movie ever.

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[07 Jul 2005|04:06pm]

So I feel like I'm dying, awesome.

I was soo sick yesterday, I didn't get out of bed all day. It was horrible. Today I don't have a fever or anything, but I'm tired.

I want to do something tonight.. but I'm sick.. :((


God Bless Amerasdjghwiugnakjb [05 Jul 2005|01:55pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Ahh the weekend.

Friday we went to NYC with Maribeth.. it was awesome. We took a tour of the NBC studios.. Snl and Conan and Dateline and all that good stuff..

I went to Gina's that night and slept over, Krys and Brett came over.. oh boy is he hott. <33

Saturday Kelly and I went to the Marriot and watched Live8.. it was so sweet. Best times ever. I slept over there that night tooo<33

Sunday I went to the mall with Mother. And then to my dad's to hang out with relatives there.. 'Carter' asked me to hang out, but alas I could not. I went to Aunt Joan's that night to sleepover and campout there..

Monday was the 4th and I hung out at Aunt Joan's with everyone.. it was awesome..it always is.

Was supposed to hang out with him that night but he decided to go have fun with some of his other friends.. which he decided to name all the 'girls' for me..what the fuck. Whatever.. he's off at the beach for the week. I wonder if we'll hang out again...ever.



I don't know why I'm hiding it now, I mean there's no reason to right? It's not like I'm his big secret anymore, I shouldn't even be a secret.. so fuck it.


[30 Jun 2005|11:53pm]

I forgot to mention that I'm having a good time with my life, considering all my entries are depressed peices of shit.



Ash came over yesterday, we went to HQ. We saw the Resaino boys<33 We missed my favorite one though.

We also hung out a little at BJ's...and then we went to New Hope. It was pretty fun, I enjoyed myself. When we got home we went back to my mom's. It was completely downpouring, I can't even explain how hard it was actually raining, but I've never seen it like that. So naturally we were both outside dancing in the rain. We were drenched, but I liked it.

Before sleeping I felt it would be a good idea to watch ER. Be Still My Heart, and All In The Family to be exact. For those of you not in the know, those are the episodes where Carter and Lucy get stabbed, and unfortunately Lucy dies. It was quite sad indeed.

When we woke up in the morning we decided to watch some more wonderful ER. Lockdown, to be exact again. Which is my favorite episode. Jeff((my super cool driving instructor who likes to talk to me about partying and smoking and stuff)) was supposed to come at 12. Unfortunately he came a little early so I did not get to see Carter and Abby's famous kiss. I was completely pissed off.

I went driving.. I was a little nervous because we were switching lanes and I'm not very good at that.. or I didn't think I was. Turns out it's not that bad. We drove around for like 2 hours and then I went back home. Awesome. But I now have my permit which I am completely and totally stoked about.

Tomorrow I think I'm going into the City with Maribeth for a while. It should be good times.

I'm totally just wasting time now, I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm at my dad's and cannot sleep because it's 102 degrees, or because I have to sleep in my sister's room and she is the loudest snorer ever because she's freaken sick. Both of these reasons are enough to make me kill myself right now. All I want to do is sleep. But I can't. Because my mind is constantly running around on this single track. This one stupid track that it's been on for three fucken months and I can't get control of it. It's bound to get better soon though right? I mean I can't think about the same thing for the rest of my life.. cause that would BLOW.

^So this was supposed to be a happy entry.. so much for that.

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[30 Jun 2005|10:29pm]





That's the big news for the week. Other than that, I've been playing hard to get. I don't know for sure if it's working, but we'll see. I knew that it had happened. He didn't have to tell me. But I'm glad he wanted to. But whatever.. we'll see if he calls tonight.. mwhaha.

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